Weigh-In: Week 19

This week's loss:  -2.2
Total Loss to Date:  -57.6

Hoping to hit 60 pounds soon!!  :)

Summer is going to be tough!  Now that the weather has gotten nicer I am missing being able to have my alcoholic drinks all the time.  My next door neighbor and I like to sit out by the pool (or IN the pool!) in the evening and have a couple drinks and now if I want to do that I need to "save" the points.  I've decided that my drink for the summer is going to be Corona Light with a lime.  It's just 3 points so it's not too hard to save 6 points till the end of the day to have a couple.  Is it sad that I am thinking I can eat only fruit for breakfast since it is zero points and use those points on booze??

The other problem with summer is going to cook outs at other people's houses.  When it's at my house I can control what I eat much easier.  Tonight we went to eat at my in-laws.  Cheeseburgers and hot dogs on the grill and a variety of salads....all with mayonnaise.  Sigh!  I ended up not eating much all day so that I could have dinner--1 hotdog with no bun (8 points), 1/2 cup potato salad (6 points), 1/2 cup broccoli salad (5 points) and an ear of corn (3 points).   And LOTS of water!  All I had up to that point was 6 points so I still stayed under but I hate doing that.  Too many points to eat in one meal!  And now I only have 4 points left for a snack tonight!

Weigh-In: Week 18

Wow, it doesn't feel like it's been 18 weeks already!  Time flies when you're having fun...

This week's loss:  -2.0
Total Loss to Date:  -55.4

I've started trying to do some more walking.  I hate exercising!  How do I teach myself to like it?  Does anyone REALLY enjoy it?  I walked three times this week, each time between 2.1 and 2.2 miles.  I know that's not a lot but I really find I'm bored!  The first two times I just put my audio book on my phone and popped the ear buds in to pass the time.  The last time I convinced Evan to go with me and that was actually kind of nice to have the time talking with him.  However, when we got home I asked him if he would go with me again and he said "Yeah, I guess.  But not like every week or anything."  So I don't think he's going to be my walking partner!  My husband keeps saying he will walk with me at night after dinner but honestly I don't want to do it that late, especially right after dinner.  And honestly I don't think he will follow through anyway!!  I guess I'm destined to walk alone...  :(

At the Weight Watchers meeting this week they talked about weight loss plateaus and how to get past them.  One of the ideas was to change the foods you are eating because it makes your body work harder to process things that are different.  I do find that I eat the same things a lot of the time--I like them plus I know the nutritional information and points so they just become my "go to" foods.  Anyone got any creative ideas for meals--especially breakfast and lunch?  For breakfast I tend to eat things like fruit, bagel thins with fat free cream cheese, and healthy breakfast sandwiches I make at home.  Lunch is almost always a salad or a low carb wrap with chicken salad or turkey or something. I think I'm in a rut!  Any suggestions would be appreciated!

I'm pretty excited--hubby is outside now working on opening the pool for the summer!  I am looking forward to swimming for exercise and I want to try to do some water aerobics this summer.  I bought a water aerobics dvd a couple years ago....I wonder where that went??  Hmmm....  Maybe I can download a water aerobics video on my kindle so I can prop it up next to the pool.  Anyone want to join me this summer for pool exercise??

So true!

Saw this today and had to share!  I can't tell you how many of these things I do on weigh in day!!  Sad but true!!  Today is the day...

I feel gross...

So, we went to that Brazilian Steakhouse last night.  I decided to relax and just not worry about what I was eating.  I definitely didn't eat anywhere near what I would have 5 months ago.   I didn't have any alcoholic drinks (just water and a diet Coke) or dessert items.  I ate mostly from the salad bar area and stayed away from the high calorie stuff.  But I did eat some of the meat which I said I wasn't going to.  I didn't eat that much....just little bits of a few different things....but this morning I feel sooooo gross!  Probably because my system isn't used to that kind of food anymore and definitely it was a larger quantity than I have been eating lately.  As soon as I finished eating I asked myself the question "was it worth it?"  The answer was a definite NO!!  I don't feel guilty.....I know that there are going to be times when I do this....but I wish the indulgence had been something I would have enjoyed more!  :(  I just hope this doesn't hurt me on the scale this week!

Tonight we are going out to dinner AGAIN with friends.  I am definitely going to stay within my points today.  I already pre-planned my dinner from the restaurant website and logged the points in my Weight Watchers app on my phone.  I find that works well so I know what I can eat during the day and still stay under points.  But right now I still feel so gross from last night that I don't even want to eat....

So going forward I am going to still allow myself these little indulgences but only if they are worth the extra points!  Why eat it if I'm not going to enjoy it??

Hope you're all having a great weekend!  :)

Weigh-In: Week 17

This week's loss:  -2.6
Total Loss to Date:  -53.4

Not gonna lie....I was really hoping for a 4 pound week after the last couple crappy weeks but as long as it's 2+ pounds a week I'm okay with it.  If I can do 2 pounds a week I will be able to make my next goal.

I'm a little stressed out.  Our friends invited us to go with them tonight to a Brazilian Steakhouse (Texas de Brazil) and it will be VERY difficult not to blow it!  Not that I am a big meat eater but this place is apparently all about the meat!  I just checked out the website and it looks like I can just do the salad bar (otherwise it is unlimited meat that they just keep bringing to your table!).  I know the others will be gorging on meat so maybe I can sneak a bite or two of Keith's but I don't want to pay $50 when I will eat so little of it.  It's probably gonna smell so yummy in there that it will be tough not to indulge!  It wouldn't be so bad but tomorrow night we are going with another group of friends to the Red Osier for prime rib!  Temptations!  Gonna be a rough weekend!!

New Goal

I find that I am more successful when I have a goal that I am working toward.  Now that I have accomplished the first goal it's time to set the next one!

So, here goes.... the next goal is to lose 75 pounds by the end of July.  So I have about 11 weeks to lose 25 pounds.  I feel like this one is going to be tough.  Summer is always a rough time for me--all of that yummy picnic food and drinks by the pool.  Just thinking about it makes me nervous!

I picked the end of July for a couple of reasons.  First is that I leave on vacation for a week on August 1st and I KNOW that will not be a good week so I'd like to have met that goal before then!  Second is that July 30th is my 30 year class reunion.  Yikes!  Not sure how I got that old!  I'm not doing this to try and impress anyone.....they've already seen me fat....but I would love to go feeling better about myself and more confident.  Who doesn't want to feel like they look good?  And I'd love to be able to buy an outfit for it that is a smaller size!

I really appreciate everyone's support!  This is just the beginning of a long journey and it helps to read your words of encouragement.  I am nervous that the next part of this journey will be tough for me.  I have lost 50+ pounds more times than I care to remember and somewhere between 50 and 60 pounds or so I seem to fall apart and never get past that point.  I think the most I have ever lost was around 65.  Not sure what happens at that point but I am really, really hoping not to fall into that trap again!  I do feel different this time and I really think that the fact that I am attending the WW meetings will keep me going.  Fingers crossed!!

Weigh-In: Week 16

Figured I'd better update since tomorrow night is already the next weigh-in!

This week's loss:  -1.4
Total Loss to Date:  -50.8

I did it!!  Finally passed the 50 pound hurdle!!  WooHoo!!  Still not happy with this week's loss but I am feeling pretty good about getting to my first goal!

This week I earned two new pieces of bling!!  You know how I like the bling!   One of them was for losing 50 pounds and the other for completing my first 16 weeks (4 months) at Weight Watchers.  I must admit, I'm pretty proud of myself for both and I am still feeling really good about the journey so far!

New bling!!  50 pound & 4 month charms!

Weigh-In: Week 15

So, this week was the big week!  I just needed .2 pounds to make my 50 pound goal!

This week's loss:  +.4     <----- Yes, that DOES say +  (sigh!)
Total Loss to Date:  -49.4

Yeah....that was NOT what I was looking for.  :(  I was NOT happy and it took me a couple of days to let it go.  I didn't do anything different this week--I stayed under my points and drank tons of water.  This is the first week I have had a gain since I started and it was at the worst possible time.  I am big on goals and this was the first one I had set for myself.  I know it was kind of ambitious--50 pounds in 15 weeks--but I was SOOOOOO close!!

I have a theory on what happened.  Fast forward past this paragraph if you don't like to hear about bodily functions and girl stuff.  I have ongoing issues with diverticulitis and this week I was having a bit of a flare up and was unable to poop.  (Yes, I said POOP!)  That, combined with bloating from my monthly cycle, and I was a bloated, miserable mess.  I felt like I was retaining a small lake.  Plus I honestly think that I put so much pressure on this one week that my body just retaliated.  I know that might sound a little crazy to some but that's how I feel...  I had a bad feeling all week that I wasn't going to make it....I had convinced myself of it....it seemed crazy that I couldn't get there since I needed only .2 of a freakin' pound.  But it didn't happen.  :(

Now, I will allow myself to call it a partial win because I said I wanted to lose 50 pounds by my birthday and when I stepped on the scale on Saturday I did make it.  But in my mind it wasn't an "official" weigh in so it doesn't count.  Yeah, I'm nuts...

So, onward we go.  I am trying to put this past me and want to try and make it this week so that I can pass this hurdle and move on toward the next goal.  I will tell you I am not feeling very good about it based on the numbers I have seen on my home scale this week but I'm gonna keep on going.  And if I don't make it this week I will have my pity party, throw a few things, and move on.  I promise I won't quit.

I am wondering if this is a test.  Maybe someone wants to find out if I am really serious and if I will continue on in the face of adversity?  (Yes, I know that's a little dramatic!)  I am very much a black & white person and in my mind I see this scoreboard with "Win" or "Loss" and right now there is a big old check mark next to the loss column.  :(  I know I need to get over this and realize that it's a journey and it won't always be smooth travels but I DO NOT LIKE TO FAIL!!

And before you say it....I know that this isn't a failure.  I've lost almost 50 pounds in less than 4 months.  I am proud of that and happy about it.

Hey, I never claimed to make sense....

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Total Loss to Date: -49.8 wants us to think about this before the meeting:  What is your vision for the church and how will it promote change 
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If you can, Mike wants us to think about this before the meeting:  What is your vision for the church and how will it promote change 
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