Loss this week: -5.4 pounds
Total loss to date: -78.4 pounds
Phew! I got rid of the extra I had accumulated over the last couple of weeks and am headed in the right direction again! I was struggling for a couple of weeks and eating everything in sight. Last week I found myself trying to come up with an excuse to skip the meeting. That is the first time since I started in January that that thought has even crossed my mind. Usually I look forward to the meeting so I can see my progress. When I realized how dangerous that thought was I realized I was in trouble. I knew the scale was going to go up....but I also knew I HAD to go! I truly believe I was at that point where I could have easily gone the other way and that quickly I would have seen my progress slipping away. I didn't want to face the scale...seeing a gain is tough...but I am glad I went. It was a reality check--I can't allow myself to live the way I was before--and that the food I was eating was NOT worth it. I didn't feel good about it--I felt guilty--and for the first time in a long time I actually felt sick because of the crap I was putting into my body. I can't say I didn't enjoy the food (and the drinks....OMG, lots of drinks!) but afterward I realized that the temporary enjoyment I got from eating it wasn't worth the guilt I felt after. Duh!
So I refocused and have rededicated myself to this new life. Maybe I needed that little journey off track to give me the jump start that I needed. I know this won't be the last detour on this path but I am hoping that I am learning how to recover from the detours and not let them be the end. This is a lifelong thing....not a diet...and it's not realistic to think that I won't have "bad" days. But before a bad day would become a bad week, and a bad month....I will NOT let that happen anymore! And I was pretty psyched about a 5.4 pound loss this week...that is the biggest one I've had in a LONG time! Would love to hit 80 pounds next week!!! Fingers crossed!
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