This week's loss: -3.8
Total Loss to Date: -61.4
WooHoo!! I've passed the 60 pound mark!! That feels really good. I feel like I am making progress and I'm really psyched about it. I wish I could say that I look in the mirror and see it...but I don't. Hopefully that will happen before too long. I do feel it, however. I have gone down 4 pants sizes....yes, 4!! And I am buying my shirts smaller too. It feels good to put on clothes that wouldn't have fit me a few months ago. Soon I am going to go through my clothes and donate all of the ones that are too big. I am not keeping them this time. I need to move forward believing that I will never need those clothes again. It's a hard idea to grasp, as yo-yoing is all I have ever known. But if I believe that I will fail and gain the weight back, I will. This time WILL be different!
I got a little extra incentive this past weekend to continue my journey to improve my health. I ended up in the hospital overnight for a bout of atrial fibrillation. For those who don't know what that is, a-fib is an irregular heart rhythm where it is beating really fast and irregularly. This happened to me once before, 16 years ago and I had hoped it was behind me. The doctors don't know why it happens to me, they can't connect it to any particular trigger. I don't consume much caffeine because of my previous problem with this so that wasn't the cause. So none of the normal triggers apply to me. I wish I knew what was it was so I could avoid it. :( I saw my cardiologist the morning for a follow up and he said all is good. Said I could resume all activities and to try not to worry about it. (Clearly he doesn't know me!) He has given me a prescription for a drug that worked this time to get my heart to return to a normal rhythm. If it happens again I can try to "fix" it at home without going to the emergency room. If it doesn't correct in a few hours I will have to go in to the ER though. I feel a little better knowing that I have that available. The doc said that exercise and continuing to eat healthy, along with trying to reduce stress, is all I can really do. So that is what I will do!! :)
Yay! So, so proud of you! First for not giving up, and second for reaching the next goal! I am also glad to hear that you are okay. You have been in my prayers. I also love the quote here. I have this on my medal rack as it stated exactly how I felt a couple years ago when I did the triathlon series. I completely understand what you are saying about not seeing the difference but feeling it. Even though I "know" I am thin, sometimes I look in the mirror and do not see it. I feel it and I see it in pictures and everyone tells me, but that dreaded mirror doesn't always show it. We just have to overcome that image that we see of ourselves and keep pushing forward. Reminding ourselves that how we feel is the most important thing. By the way, I can tell! The recent pics that you have posted, I can definitely see a change in your face! I imagine the rest of you shows a difference too and I cannot wait to see how you have been doing come August! Keep going, don't give up, you are doing great! Love ya!
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